Help a Survivor Overcome Life’s Challenges

Hi, well I’m basically your typical person coming to the USA with no higher education or knowledge about laws. I came here at a young age, finished high school, and went to law school with some money I won in a lottery. After I dropped out because I didn’t qualify for financial aid, anyhow, I got older. I’ve been working on my citizenship, but I got stuck, and this is why I’ve come to this point to ask for help! I’m a humanitarian asylum recipient. I won my asylum in 2021, got my social security, and all. I’ve been paying taxes since I remember. I started working with the TIN number you get. I had an accident when I was 15 years old. Back then, I didn’t think much about it and let it slide. In November 2021, I heard something like a snap sound in my lower left side, and I couldn’t move or bend for 3 months. I got workers’ comp; they kinda did everything to cut me short on any benefits, of course. It was settled, but boom, the pain got worse and worse. I needed to do something. I went to a specialist, the same one that actually helped me with workers’ comp. New X-rays, blah blah blah, boom, the area had worsened. It looks like a big shadow and whatnot. I ended up developing 80% of my back with arthritis from all the heavy lifting I’ve been doing my whole life. I worked at everything; you name it, I’ve done it, from digging holes in concrete and dirt to QC quality specialist. But this year has been one of the worst, if not the worst, in my personal life. I’ve been out of work for about 3 months now on FMLA leave, and I used all the company hours in the one I’m supposed to be working. They have this strict rule that I need to pay my insurance upfront; if not, I would get cut immediately. My life has been disaster after disaster. My car got totaled in front of where I was renting. It was a 2014 Nissan Versa, beautiful, simple, no Bluetooth, nothing fancy, just a sturdy and reliable machine. I thought I was gonna keep it my whole life and have it as a symbol of how I started. Sadly, that wasn’t the case. Moving on, I got my asylum, but I haven’t yet sent the green card application due to lack of money. I got scammed and lost all my savings last year. I lent money to a couple of friends; two blocked me, moved, and f***ed me over. The other one I ended up taking to small claims court; still in process. Now he’s a crackhead living in the streets, I don’t know where, and yet the process still hasn’t got to step two, and it’s only for $2,300. So, I totally lost over $20,000. Going forward, I can’t qualify for disability nor unemployment, nor have I ever applied for food stamps or any of that. The thing is, at my workplace, they won’t accept me with light duty because of what I do; I need to be in perfect shape. (But when I was giving my all, bonus, good job, keep doing it.) Now it’s like, here he comes with his dramatic sick face. You know that feeling when you are being dealt with but not wanted? That’s how I’ve been feeling there every time I tried to go back on light duty, specified with the doctor’s words. The manager didn’t care much, put me to do the same thing I was doing before because he felt I was overreacting. I’m planning on putting a claim at the Department of Labor because I feel it was unfair. So, if all, I ended up developing severe carpal tunnel syndrome in both of my hands. Just surgery on one at the moment, another coming as soon as I get money. The pain is unbearable; my hands, fingers, pins and needles, my back, lower and upper, it’s horrible. At the moment, I’m behind on every payment. Rent, my mom paid it last month from a third-world country to America. She sent the money because she doesn’t want me to be in the streets. I got so many bills that I was living check by check. Now my bank got me blocked from everything. I went over the limit. My credit card is at its highest, no more can be used. And overall, my friend’s mother stole my identity and opened every single credit card she could. In less than 24 hours, there was a fraud alert that blocked most of them, but she ended up having two approved that she maxed out in a minute, buying everything and reselling for cash. I filed a fraud claim as well, but that’s just starting. Just peachy, right? Keeps getting better. I’m selling everything I can, even things I buy, I resell to make at least an extra $5 for a meal. I’m literally living on one meal a day. Haven’t paid my car in two months, rent probably won’t be able to afford this month, car insurance probably. I got like 8 days left. I applied for everything, Uber, Lyft, you name it, everything is on a waitlist. I just feel this is a test that God sent me! But when will enough be enough? I got my humanitarian asylum because I’m a survivor since age 5 and a half. Been dealing with so many mental issues ever since. It’s unbelievable the amount of meds I take daily, and I’m so desperate that I have the need to start this because, to be honest, any single cent helps now. I give change when I have to the homeless people, but I can understand much now how some of them have gotten to that point, so I try my best to not judge, not discriminate, nothing like that. I’m very much a loner. I keep to myself, don’t really have anyone to lean on. I’ve been on my own since age 15, doing it on my own since I was 19, but still got some cash for my birthday when I was younger and such. But the last two years, I’ve just got a text, a call from my mom. I make the call, not her. But still, you know, it feels empty not having someone give you at least a small cup of candy for your birthday. I get worried when I get older, but as it is right now, I’m very much desperate. I won’t steal because I was taught to not take what’s not yours! I don’t escort myself because I have dignity to go and sell my body for a few bucks, but I just can’t no more. I won’t have money for a daily meal, which is less than $5. I won’t have any sort of way to make money, and selling all I have has literally become an old story of mine. I’m begging, please, if someone has a cent, a penny, anything helps just to have a little extra for clothes. I haven’t bought anything since 2022, no underwear, no clothes, nothing. The people that know or places I go daily for food see me with the same clothes every single day. I try my best to not use my clothes at home because I don’t have any money for laundry. I need deodorant now, body wash, anything to eat as long as it’s not seafood because of an allergic reaction. But life is suffocating me. I’m at my limit. I’m desperate. I want to work, I do, I really do, but going to sleep with pain and waking up with more pain is really hard, and I’m so young. I need help, and here I am begging for it! Remember, karma is real and will provide someday! Overall, I don’t fight with anybody. I don’t kill anything, not even a small fruit fly or a spider. I’m learning how to survive with water and light because that’s all I can afford now. My family, of course, I have, but I don’t talk to them or anything, so it’s basically “Me, Myself, and I.” Thank you all for reading, and God bless you, and always stay positive! Still asking God what I’ve done so terribly to get to this. He will give me my answers.