As many of you know, over the past couple of years, my life has changed drastically. Recently, within the past year, I totaled my Jeep, and I guess it was a blessing and a curse because that’s when I found out I had Chiari malformation. I started having really bad seizures and even had to be airlifted by helicopter once because the seizure was so bad that the paramedics couldn’t help me. I was really bad, and it ended up being that the Chiari malformation was so bad that my brain doesn’t have enough room in my skull. It has gotten to where it is now leaking cerebellum fluid into my spine, and it’s now caused a cyst of cerebellum fluid. I will have no option but to have brain and spine surgery. They’ll be cutting the lower part of my brain out and the lower part of my skull, and they will also be going through my spine and removing that cerebellum cyst. I will be in the neurological intensive care unit for a couple of weeks, maybe more, depending on my progression of healing. But not only that, I will be in the hospital for a total of maybe eight weeks and possibly rehab, just kind of depends on how everything goes and how I recover.
So now the issue is I’m not able to work because I’m having really, really bad seizures that we’re trying really hard to control, but we’re just not able to get them stabilized, I guess, because they’re more stress seizures, so epileptic medication doesn’t seem to really help me. They have me on three medications for seizures, and I’m still having them. So, it’s been a long year. On top of it, I broke my wrist and will be in a cast 2 more weeks.
Many of you may know that I finally am divorced. Many of you do not know that Michael was very, very abusive, and there was such a front put up because I had to put up a front for him, or there was such retaliation. Many of you also may not know how he would leave me without a car for weeks. He was cheating on me, plus he was verbally, mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive—you name it. He wasn’t even a good dad at all, but I’m not even touching that topic. Trust me, it was a lot. I have been through a lot, and that’s why I kind of went silent on social media for a while, just for my sake. During the process, I kind of had to do that.
I basically do not have a vehicle now because I totaled mine, and I’ve not been able to work due to the magnitude of my seizures and facing brain surgery. Dr. Shepherd, who is going to be my neurosurgeon, said that it is a level 12, and level five is like you need surgery now, and mine is level 12. That was about four months ago.
During the divorce, Michael stopped making payments on the house, and he quit his job so he wouldn’t have to pay me alimony. So, I’ve lost my home. I will be homeless, or should I say I am homeless. I don’t have the words to describe the magnitude of help that I need quickly.
I know this may sound bad to a lot of people, but I have had to reach out to get help with my medical and help with food. But here in Arkansas, the waitlist for a home or Section 8 is a two to four-year waitlist. Because of my health and the medications I’m on, the homeless shelters will not take me. So, it’s just another problem to pile on top of the problems I already have. I have multiple health problems: RA, psoriatic arthritis, severe lymphedema on my lower abdominal area stage 4. I’m facing health issues I won’t mention, but God knows.
This is something I would hardly ever do, and I wouldn’t call it pride or that I’m too good; it’s just I know that we’re all struggling with things in our lives, and I know that we’re all having difficulty in our own way. But I mean, I can’t have this brain surgery until I have a roof over my head and a vehicle. That is why I have made this fundraiser. I made it as a last resort or last option, but I guess I kind of had no other choice but to go this route because I have no one, and I need the surgery, or I will die. It’s no lie; I can show any medical record needed. My seizures are daily.
I can provide any proof that is needed on everything that is wrong with me and what I’m going through. I’m not trying to scam anyone or lie, and those of you that truly know me, know I would never do that. I’m a very honest person and have morals, values, and respect to ever try to take others’ help, kindness, and generosity for granted.
If you cannot donate, don’t feel bad. I know we’re all struggling, and the best thing that you can do is pray for me, send good thoughts, send encouragement, light a candle, whatever it is that you do, but please share this if you can. Just anything that you can do will help. I know that God is in control of it all, and sometimes we want things in our time, but we have to trust His plan and His timing and the path He has for us, and that’s all we can do.
I appreciate each and every one of you, and I thank you for whatever it is you can do in advance. I thank you whether it’s sharing it, donating, praying, whatever it is. I want you to know that I deeply appreciate it with all my heart, and I hope one day I can return the favor. You know, what we do in life, we will definitely be rewarded for in heaven. I’ve given this to God, and my tears are uncountable. I have no option but to have the surgery, and I need a car and a place to live before I can do that. So, whatever you can do, like I said, it doesn’t matter what it is—donate, share, pray, light a candle, good thoughts. I know I’m rambling, but thank you for whatever you can do, and God bless you all. I very much so thank you with all my heart, and I will update you all throughout this process as much as possible. Thank you so much already in advance. Thank you.
